The Build-up to Britmums Live 2012!

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It is actually 6 weeks away. Oh My Word. I bought my ticket ages ago and put a reminder in my iPhone and then forgot about it. Each time I go on twitter I see a reminder and think to myself "Yeah Yeah It's in June". Then suddenly June is not so far away, in fact that is next month.

You might be wondering why I'm so hung up on this or maybe you aren't. Well, I'm going to tell you anyway. You see I suffer from Postnatal Anxiety & Depression. Due to that, I have never left my son with anyone longer than 2 hours since he was born just over a year ago.

The thought of leaving Ethan for longer than that talk less of 2 days feels me with such dread. I have laid awake unable to sleep worrying about how we will overcome this.

However, My therapist & I have come up with a plan. She calls it "Situational Exposure Therapy" Basically she helps me take tiny steps that still scares the heck out of me until I reach my goal - Britmums Live.

So I'm hoping that we actually make it!
I'll keep you all posted via tweets on my progress.