I think AF is here.
To be honest I am quite devastated. I suppose because I really though this was it for us. Unlike the previous cycle, I ovulated. We DTD at the 'right times' and after I had Ov'd, nursing E was unbearable. I had cramps on and off during my 2ww so was hopeful.
I tested with some ebay 10mlu cheapies at 9DPO same day I got a BFP with E but it was Negative. I ordered some First Response ones and they arrived yesterday, I tested using 3rd morning Urine and thats when things got messy.
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| First response 'white line'. |
I got a white line. Yes you read that right. A white line. A freaking white line. That blasted thing made me believe for a split second that we had done it. Then I googled and realised it was actually very common. So a BFN.
I am rather cross that this phenomenon is so common. There shouldn't be any line if its a negative result. No line. It is cruel to let a woman think there is a chance. I rang the first response line and the lady confirmed it was a negative and the 'indent' shouldn't be there.
This is a PSA: ladies, if it's not pink do not think you are with child. "A line is a line" is no longer valid.
I hope first response sorts their poop out because women's hopes and dreams are tied up in that little stick they sell to us. 6 days sooner my derrière!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Vent Over~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well I tested this morning and got the same white line but then discovered I was bleeding. 2 days early but it's here I guess.
I had a chat with my friend E and she really helped me put into perspective.
I'll take some time to just be and see what happens.
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6 comments:
HUGS I totally get it I hated the white line too when we were ttc I will keep praying for you.
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I know how difficult it can be TTC. I'm sure you've heard this over and over again but anxiety only makes conception more difficult. I know it sounds like a cliche but you need to be relaxed. I am honestly saying this from EXPERIENCE! Praying for you girl
(((Hugs))) Sorry for your sadness. Praying for perfect timing in the near future.
TTC is so HARD! It took us 3 months to fall pregnant with our first baby... and when we tried again we fell pregnant after only 2 months, but miscarried and it then took more than a year to fall pregnant, again we miscarried... 6 months later we got our sticky bean.
It's so random... there is only so much planning that can be done. Don't be disheartened... when it happens, you won't remember this upset and the waiting and trying.
Thank you ladies. To be honest I have been avoiding this post. I never thought I would get so tied up emotionally with this since on the surface, I am content with just E. I was going to take a break but if we stop now, then how will it happen
We were TTC for years before my second child was born. It was so hard. Every cycle was hard from the first to the very last. Starting a new cycle after a particular hopeful cycle was always that hardest. (hug) I will be praying for you and your family.
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