Lent,40 Days of Renewal: Day 12

Currently on day 12 of Lent. Surprised at how good I feel this week. This is because at around day 5, I was struggling really badly and wanted some sugar. I had headaches in the days preceding and I was just miserable, usually during my menses, I use sugar (chocolate) to cope with being in pain & feeling yucky. This time around no chance. I bought some stevia to use as a substitute in baking, I have concluded that I don't like the after taste. I had some Agave Syrup in my cupboard that I was used to using which I think I will stick to afterwards.

The rest of the household use unrefined sugar at the moment. I am undecided whether I want to go back to using that in my baking, think I need more research to weigh up the pros & cons.

Spiritually, I am just soaking up the joy that comes with actually getting to stick with a daily devotional at the moment. I am using Lent for Everyone via the Youversion app. What I am getting is that time to pause and contemplate. I hope this s something I can carry on doing in life generally.

E used to fit in that top!

Emotionally, this past week has been rubbish. Being blunt here folks. I have been up,down and somewhere in between. Being in pain has made me question my worth as a mother to my son, I have felt inadequate, very irritable which i then feel guilty about but I have also felt really happy. This weekend I spent quality time with the hubby, we went to a baby sale event and sold Ethan's old clothes and toys. It reminded me of what an amazing team we make. We are the strength that upholds our respective weaknesses. Throughout the week, he encouraged me when things seemed to be going down the pan. I cracked my iPhone screen for the 2nd time and I bawled like a baby, that is after I hid it in a drawer as I could bear the sight of it. My man took it all in his stride. I love that man.

So all in all I suppose Lent is doing what it s meant to be doing, renewal. Out with the old, in with the improved.

 

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